[Admin note: This is a survivor story from an ex-member who left in 2010 during the first crisis/exodus. All personal details have been removed by request of the ex-member]
When I left Shepherds church, about 3 months later, I went to [a healthy church] conference, which they do every year at the end of the year…it starts on … my birthday….
While I was in worship there, I heard the Holy Spirit ask this question: do you believe that I forgave you?
I said, yes I do.
Then I heard another voice in my head shout “No you don’t” Then after that I shouted back at the voice, “Yes I do!”
And then it was like a weight lifted off me
And all of the sudden, I was full of the Holy Spirit.
It was the best feeling ever.
When I left shepherds church, they told me I worshipped idols
They condemned me and made me feel like I wasn’t following Jesus
I wondered in my mind all the time if I was doing something wrong.
It was that tormenting, lying spirit
It controlled a part of my heart to not truly walk in the freedom of Christ
And Jesus set me free. Yippee!
I will never forget it
I love the faithfulness of my one true Shepherd Jesus
I had 4 years of their control and “impartation” to be set free from haha
Anyway, I was at this worship event at CSU____ about 6 months after I left Shepherds church
I remember praying for the campus and for their ministry, that they would not be able to deceive people.
And then the Holy Spirit said, Read 1 John 2:27
I don’t think I had read that verse up to this point in my walk.
So I opened my Bible and this is what it said: 1 John 2:27 But the anointing which you have received from Him abides in you, and you do not need that anyone teach you; but as the same anointing teaches you concerning all things, and is true, and is not a lie, and just as it has taught you, you will[a] abide in Him.
Then I felt led to just flip the bible open to another passage and this is what I landed on:
Ephesians 5:11 And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather expose them.
I felt like God was saying that I should have nothing to do with their shepherding lie…exposing them was ok
We made some effort to help others for a time
But we also went on to have nothing to do with them
The Bible exposes their lies in so many verses