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Note: This letter was written in [early?] 2011 by Kang Yang Lee and Sarah Lee, disciples of David [Minsung] Kim and Rebekah [Minsun Shin] Kim whom left Long Beach/LA/Downey UBF chapter. This is the same Rebekah Kim who wrote the open letter to her former chapter. This letter was provided by a former member of that chapter.
The open letter:
This is God’s message of repentance for the Korean UBF.
The word that God gave me while I prepared my message is:
“Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees (UBF shepherds), you hypocrites! You travel over land and sea to win a single convert, and when he becomes one, you make him twice as much a son of hell as you are.” (Matthew 23:15)
UBF’s 50th anniversary celebration is now around the corner. The purpose of the celebration is to give thanks to God who used UBF for his life giving work for the last 50 years and to glorify God. This is what the UBF leaders’ are thinking, however it is not God’s thought. If the celebration happens it will only mock God and it will be disgusting from God’s point of view. It is not the time of celebrating but the time of UBF repenting with cries and tears. Only then can God use UBF continually. Otherwise, UBF will be used by Satan as an organization to produces sons of hell and it will be judged by the fire of hell (1 Samuel 3:13). Please recognize this and repent. The repentance topic for UBF is: “not spiritual leaders but ‘soul-developed’ leaders leading the ministry.” Man has clear order of constitution: spirit, soul, and body. The spirit should control the soul, and the soul should control the body. For example, in the time of Noah the body ruled over the soul resulting in people being busy in marrying and being given in marriage and homosexuals becoming popular. God was grieved that he had created men. So he had to judge men by a flood.
Our society is ruled by men of soul. Those who study hard and cultivate intelligence become leaders in our society. Those who are admitted by Seoul National University or Harvard are those who cultivate the soul. They become judges, professors, and medical doctors. They lead our society. People like organized criminal gangsters seek the body and they cannot lead our society. If they control our society it will become dark and without law. However, in a church a man of spirit rather than soul should become a leader. God is spirit and therefore he speaks by spirit. In order to listen to God’s voice a man should cultivate his spirit and he has to tell others what he has heard from God. If a man of soul becomes a leader in a church he cannot listen to God’s voice and it itself is corruption and leads to spiritual darkness. Those leaders who develop their soul only are intellectually powerful and they do well even in writing Bible commentary. However, the congregation’s hearts are remain empty. They may laugh a lot but they do not know the reason why they laugh. It is because the leaders who cultivate the soul only satisfy the intellectual thirst of congregation by using intellectual bible study and doctrines. Just as a society becomes dark without law if it is controlled by leaders of body rather than leaders of soul, so also will the church become dark if led by leaders of soul rather than spiritual leaders. Such churches will become churches irrelevant to God and eventually it will become corrupt and will be destroyed after experiencing spiritual darkness.
Spiritual leaders deliver the living word of Jehovah. They can listen to the voice of God who is spirit. We cannot know the word of God by our soul but by spirit. We can listen to the word of God. Such words from spiritual leaders are living and active and it is sharper than the double-edged sword and it divides joints and marrows and reveals the attitude of men’s heart (Hebrews 4:12-13). As a result sheep become reverent and they confess their sins out of a trembling heart. They hate sin and they make decisions to fight against their sin. They do not become spiritually exhausted but they have a poor spirit and they offer worship that is pleasing to God.
How about UBF? Are leaders in UBF leaders who cultivate their spirit? Or are they leaders who cultivate their soul?
UBF was born as a spiritual organization by the late Dr. Samuel Lee. There were clear messages that revealed repentance and salvation. However, UBF has been filled with leaders who develop their souls, although we do not know the beginning time when UBF became filled with leaders who developed their souls rather than spirit. Their sermons focus on knowledge. They are busy in analyzing bible passages. They are boasting of their sentences and their sermons are full of techniques and rhetoric. Such leaders cannot overcome their intellectual level because their sermons come not from God’s spirit but from their own soul. As a result their sheep are satisfied intellectually. Sometimes their sheep are moved emotionally and challenged and they make efforts to live according to the word of God through the strength of their will. Those sheep agree intellectually about sin, and repent and confess that Jesus is the Lord. But they do not know the seriousness of sin, and they cannot cut off their sin which they are enslaved to. Even if they remain in UBF they still carry their sin with them. Sometimes they suffer from their sin which others do not know and then leave the UBF ministry.
Others hold on to the doctrine of ‘justification by faith alone’ and use it to justify their sins. They are ignorant of repentance and carry a conscience smitten by fire. In a ministry where leaders of soul control the church sheep who are strong in (or have well developed) their soul are honored, and they are recognized as long as they make efforts by their will even if they sin continually. Indeed, UBF’s excellent heritage of one to one bible study, testimony writing and daily bread all becomes a work of developing the soul instead of a work of the spirit. As a result people who do not know God personally claim that they have met God based on their intellectual agreement and they become shepherds and missionaries and again they teach the bible. They do not know what to do with their sin and they are slaves to their sin. And yet they have confidence in the salvation that UBF teaches. Through such a repeated process sheep produced by UBF people become sons of hell all the more (Mt 23:15). This is the limitation and wicked sin of UBF which is led by leaders of intelligence. This must be repented and changed.
I am the very proof of this fruit of the UBF ministry. I got a college admission in 1998 and I studied the Bible from my freshman year of college. I did not have an interest in the bible study but my life was empty and my heart was humble due to a sickness. Bible study gave me such a joy of finding the truth of life. In addition, I was healed as I prayed. So I decided to give my life to God and live for him. I fished diligently during my college days and I never missed testimony writing. From my junior year I began to teach the bible and even became the president of the Amam UBF student body. I was diligent in serving. I finished college in 2002 and I served the Korean army as an officer. During my military service I was recognized as a man of good faith and I worked as the treasurer of my military church. I was discharged from service in 2005 and I became a missionary candidate. I then married and served as an intern shepherd for 3 years. From 2009 I was preparing to go out as a lay missionary. This is who I am by appearance. I had good faith and I was a shepherd who had zeal for the Lord.
But in reality I still suffered from lust even after I accepted Jesus in my college days. I enjoyed internet pornography. I enjoyed adulterous chatting and masturbation. I made many decisions to cut off my sin of lust because my conscience bothered me. However, I remained a slave to lust. In my testimonies I confessed my lust problems. But it was only a mere confession and there was no change. A few days later I would fall into the sin of lust again. On Saturday nights I watched pornography all night and then on Sunday morning I went to center and had one to one bible study00and I did not have any sense of problem in attending worship service. Even though I was a slave to lust I went out fishing and fed sheep with the word of God, and I challenged them to repent. While I was in my military service I was the same. I did not miss my one tenth offering and thanks offering and group bible study, but I was still a slave to lust. I worshiped God on Sunday mornings, watched pornography for a few hours in my room, and then in the evening I served the evening worship service. I was suffering because my conscience rebuked me. So I repented but my conscience felt less and less sensitive to the problem. I justified myself by quoting bible verses that show two selves – one that wants to sin and one that wants to be holy. I justified myself by seeing myself as one in the process of ‘sanctification’. I justified my sin thinking, “even if I am the most terrible sinner I will be forgiven if I hold to Jesus’ blood”–and yet still I did not give up my sin. Although I believed that God is watching me masturbate while watching pornography, I just prayed, “Have mercy on me, O God,” and I mocked God and enjoyed my lust. After I was discharged from my military service I became a missionary candidate. I received intern training and I even married because I was judged by appearance alone. However, my lust still continued. I brought pornography into my house church and masturbated, and I watched pornography together with my wife and had sexual relationships. Meanwhile, I still delivered conference messages and taught the bible to my sheep and delivered sunday messages–and all of them were disgusting before God’s eyes. I was stingy to spend my money for my sheep although I say, “we do mission by faith,” and I was slave to my money and my own plans. My conscience was smitten by fire more and more. I judged others and I justified my sin based on my own righteousness through my effort and false confidence in my salvation and false identity as a shepherd given by UBF. No one saw me as a man who will go to hell and no one pointed it out. I only looked fine because I attended meetings faithfully and had faithful one to one bible studies with my sheep.
But the Holy Spirit visited me. He revealed that I was in hell and was leading souls to hell and my face was like that of a dog and a pig. In fact, God revealed to me who I really am when I visited a church where my wife’s sister attended. The church pastor told me and my wife that we did not marry by faith but by the world. He said that I was controlled by an evil spirit of lust and my wife was controlled by an evil spirit of death. He said that both evil spirits of lust and death are bound to love each other. When I heard it I felt really bad. I did not accept what he said because I thought he did not know anything. I even did not hold my wife’s hand before we married and I believed that my marriage was an example of marriage by faith. But now I know. I know who I am. I can confess that all of this is the result of UBF’s sin.
UBF sent 1,740 missionaries during the last 50 years. The name ‘missionary’ is good. However, only their names are holy. Their hearts are not holy towards God. Most of them went out as missionaries for their own glory. Most of them are not born again and they still carry their own sins, and they go out as missionaries without the will of God. Since they hold on to the titles of “missionary” or “shepherds” so tightly they believe that they are saved even though they do not repent based on the truthful word of God. God says what they believe is an empty illusion. UBF sent such missionaries totaling 1,740 and now they are celebrating and giving glory to God. Don’t you think that it is disgusting to God?
UBF should wake up from her false illusion. She should repent for the sin of the last 50 years and change their celebration to “50th Repentance Event.” UBF leaders already know what I am talking out. Repent. Otherwise you will not escape the result of your sin (1 Samuel 3:13). Please repent.